Hi guys, Happy new year! how has it been so far for you all? For me, it has been amazing, to be honest the past few weeks have been the most serene, peaceful and happy I have had in a LONG time. I can’t really explain why it has been so, but I expect it’s due to my increase in really taking time to enjoy myself as well as the people around me. Honestly I am beyond satisfied with my current state of being so much so that I wish I could bottle it and bring it out of the cupboards when times are hard, however I am planning on maintaining this state and hopefully keeping you all on the journey with me.

2014 was an experience, I had a lot of change and one of the biggest things was making the move to being a full time Youtuber / blogger. I wrestled with myself a lot about it, and honestly had a lot of tears and sleepless nights with the worry that I wasn’t going to be any good, people don’t really like me, and I am throwing away an amazing career and long term financial comfort. Now a confession, when I left my role as a consultant to pursue this, I continued to receive calls from recruitment agents and firms, and although I knew that I left to be a blogger, I still answered calls and was convinced enough to attend an interview at an amazing international bank, where I was offered the job. I took the job, and started working a week later,  the salary was £55,000, Plus bonus, I came in around 9.30, and left at 4.30 and I had the greatest team and the coolest boss. It was cushy but I also had the opportunity to really make an impact. BUT, and that is a big BUT; it really wasn’t where my heart was (However I would work there in a flash if I had a HUGE change of heart, and if ‘Mr Boss’ man ever saw this post, I would love to let him know that he rocked, and I know I was opinionated but it is just passion for projects !).  Deep down I knew that it wasn’t where I was meant to be, I stayed for 3 months and then made my excuses and left. I realised that in life you have to go all in or go home, and there are still times where I really haven’t gone all the way, however more and more I am realising that I have to ‘Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway!’. I’m getting there.

2015, I am expecting that so much more from myself. I truly believe I can have it all, peace of mind, joy, strong relationships, flourishing business, and all that my mind and heart can desire and even more. Yea, I said it.

Now for all my beauty lovers, and those who want to know what gifts were bestowed on me over the festive period, then look no further as I shot a video detailing all of this which can be found below.

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  • I think you chose what was best for you!
    Good luck and happy 2015!
    Stella from a A Shiny Place

  • Chantal

    You definitely made the right decision in my opinion, your blog and YouTube channel are brilliant! Good luck for the rest of the year 🙂 x


  • I just watched the video! You are just radiating with beauty and love! Thanks for sharing your light with the world. 😀 LOVE YOUUUUUUU xo

    Maggie A

  • I just watched the video! You are just radiating with beauty and love! Thanks for sharing your light with the world. 😀 LOVE YOUUUUUUU xo

    Maggie A

  • aw keep up with your dreams doll ! u rock !!!

    Ohmyqueenzii blog xx

  • Happy New Year! I think it’s really commendable that you decided to move out of your comfort zone to pursue your passion. Too many people, myself included, are too comfortable in a safe place and lose out on time that could be spent on chasing and fulfilling their dreams. Best wishes for 2015!!!

    Berry Dakara Blog

  • Jose Antonio Tornes

    Hey Patricia, i just wanted to take the time to tell you how much i appreciate your blog and your youtube channel. Reading this post, i realized that you gave up a lot to pursue your dreams, which inspires me a lot. I’m currently a law student, and i’m often tired and down, but overtime i get the notification from youtube saying that you have a new video either from your main channel or your logging channel, i know that i will at least escape from my reality a bit, which are the best few minutes of my week. I like style a lot, and you and your husband inspires me a lot! All of this to say thank you for everything! Much love from Canada!

  • NiKute Williams

    Happy New Year~ what you said about having to be all in really made me realise that I wasn’t really putting my all and I need to do that for my goals. I admire how you left something stable to pursue what you truly love to do. Thank you for this blog post. Very motivational.

  • Damilola Ajayi

    Hi Patricia, my name is Damilola, I have a branding idea for a makeup brand and I don’t know how to contact them to share my idea with them

  • Those mini lipsticks look so darling! I hope you have an amazing 2015 <3

  • Angela Lawrence

    ‘Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway!’ is going to be my motto from now on. I am moving to NY, again, in hopes of finishing school and finding a job when I get there. I am definitely feeling the fear but this is something I have to do in order to pursue my career as a fashion designer. Thanks Patty I’m glad I’m not the only one going through fear at the beginning of the year!
    If there are any followers in NY, can you give me suggestions on jobs that are hiring and have a NY livable income?


  • Lol you are just so lovable Pat! I can’t believe you really started working again during your career switch lol. I don’t know you personally, but I will say this. I’ve have been feeling the downs of being unemployed and hanging out around the house a lot (which I thought would be awesome after college) isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. If you come to learn that you need that structure/team/project lifestyle try working part-time or finding something that’s a few days a week, you can even start creating your own products to sell inline with your channel if you wanted to continue down the ms. ceo track. | melperkins.com

  • Amzelica

    You are amazing. I think it is so inspiring that you followed your dreams and what truly makes you happy. I loved the vlog as well, you seemed so happy in it and full of life, you are always so positive and bouncy in your videos, but more so in this one. I loved the personalised dressing gown and diary. Always love watching your vlogs x


  • Happy New Year Patricia! It can be hard to make such big changes in your life – especially when it comes to your career and your future. I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate you and love your blog and YouTube channels. Thanks for sharing your life with us.

    “Shoot for the moon, even if you miss you’ll land among the stars.”

    xo, chekara | shadesofchekara.com

  • Congratulations on a successful 2014. I can totally understand being nervous about pursuing such a different career after having a stable one, and I totally respect you for taking that chance! Looking forward to your future videos <3

  • April Okwuobasi

    congrats on a great 2014. 2015 shall even be greater.

  • carlahollands

    i’m new to your youtube channel and i’ve gotta say..i’m in love! you’re so fun to watch and are a beautttt! xx

  • Anita

    55 000 pounds for a year??!! OMG…I live in Hungary and that money is soo much, can’t even believe it… I know everything is more expensive in the UK, but that is more than what a boss earns here!

  • LadyDrea

    Hi Pat, Happy New Years to you and your hubby! Just wanted to say hope you have a grand time on your vacation. My girls and I are trying to go next year. Please let us know what you do and what you enjoy or don’t enjoy. OMG Lancome. I just saw Lupita in their print Ad on Sunday and though I’m going to try their foundation just because she was representing me; now you are co-signing so I think I will definitely go and try. Right now I use Make up forever HD and I do like but I will give Lancome a try. Blessing in the new year…. smooches xxx

  • Thanks for sharing Patricia.


  • aww wishing you all the best! I think you’ll succeed at whatever you put your heart into!


  • Trish M.

    Hi Patricia! My name is also Patricia! I wanted to thank you so much for being so motivational as you inspire me to keep on going! I mean time has been so tough and I decided to turn all these negativity in me and translate that in to what I really have been wanting to do, have my own blog. On the first two posts, I talked about feelings and kind of motivational messages. I am so grateful to have found your channel as you always make me feel better. I hope you always stay down to earth and keep your focus into bettering yourself because your energy and care for others really radiate.

    xo T